This is a Post I have been thinking about for Months, if not longer than that.

I fully understand if this is out of the Blue for some, or that nobody even cares. However, I think that I need to be Honest with the Internet, my Friends and Acquaintances- ...why? Because I do not know if I'm gonna be able to keep drawing with everything going on in my Life, but that wont stop me from trying!

This Post is very important to me and I understand that this is getting sent to the Void, where nobody will see it.

I Hope that One Day, I can look back at this Post and see that Things are Better now and that I still got it. But as of now, Things are just too much and I need to be honest about my feelings.

There is just a lot on my Chest... hopefully this is more Hopecore than I realize. But hey, I wanna share my Hardship and maybe someone stumbles upon this and finds Hope in it.

(I will be sharing Vent Art & Unreleased Art in this Post, as I have finally felt... comfortable enough to share them.)

A Slice of my Mind (Vent)

"Trust Issues suck, but all Wounds eventually Heal with Time & Care."

A Quote from me.

Present Year

My Living Situation

As of currently, I have a wonderful Job, all the Time in the World and... Friends that care about me.

And yet, I sadly still suffer from a lot of Symptoms of Stress that inhibit both my Real and Online Life. It has gotten to a Point, where as of extremely recent, I couldn't eat, stay awake and / or even play Games. Breathing has become an issue due to the things that happened to me in the last few Years... and well, I just have no Energy for anything. I can hear my Heart beating constantly and it just feels like a matter of Time before it jumps out of my Chest with some Legs.

TLDR, I don't react well to Stress.

I legit feel like I'm burning away into Smoke and my Limbs are giving out. It fucking sucks (but man, it would make a fucking rad Drawing).

Top this all off, with everyone around me being extremely unwell (as I watch, unable to help them). The World as of right now is a Mess and its really hitting hard- especially seeing how People Online are so full of Hate. It just hurts man.

I have been trying my absolute best to keep everyone and myself Happy, its been very Hard... I think its working somewhat, but I almost lost a Friend recently (close call). I don't know, how much I really do help, but in Times like this, the smallest things bring Hope ...and considering he is still here with us- it means I must've done something right. I wish a lot of my Friends weren't Busy, id spent more Time with 'ehm and maybe they'd feel a lot better. But eh.. I gotta work on myself heh.

I want to desperately draw more- I really do, but all these Physical issues are holding me back so hard. I draw for myself- but I upload them, because I want others to see the things I like or what I am Inspired by. At least, I managed to get some Doodles out in my Free Time- which is better than Nothing! I want to keep drawing, I want to keep fighting! I want to tell my Story!

I wish I could draw like most Artists here, who do it almost daily. Heh, id be a Powerhouse!

But man, I used to be like that, before all this Stress crumbled me.

So you know what? I will try my best, till my fucking dying Breath to keep drawing!

Q: Why can you not reduce the Stress?

I live with a Parent who is extremely Toxic, but this isn't really the Place to vent that.

What Matters is that we live in the same Household, with no Privacy.

Q: Why cant you Move Out?

Housing Crisis & Money. Plus Social Workers cant move me out cuz its too expensive for my Salary apparently.

Q: Have you tried talking to your Parent?

Yes. It didn't work out.

Q: Do you suffer from any other Issues that could be inhibiting your Daily Life?

PTSD & Autism.

A Slice of my Mind 2 (Vent)

"and the universe said I love you because you are love."

Is a Quote from Minecraft that keeps me going. I hope it keeps others going too.

A Context Summary of 2023 - 2026

The FNF Corruption Community

In the 3 Years that I spent in the Friday Night Funkin Corruption Community, I have gone through a lot of things- both Good and Bad (Mostly God Awful Bad). But, It was certainly the first Time I've ever had my Art be shared / be seen by this many People and for that, I'm forever grateful.

(Some Doodles from CorruptionIF, maybe ill release the unpublished stuff into the Art Portal)

I got insanely lucky by being able to work on FNFCIF and I met a Few People on there, who I will wholeheartedly call my Friends for Life. Hell, I ended up meeting a lot of New People in return, through those Friendships and it was one of the Best Things I could've asked for as an Artist... I learned a lot from 'ehm.

However, I experienced a ton of Stress, both from the Popularity and well, how the Community treated a lot of us on the Team. It was quite a difficult time, as I was harassed / stalked quite often (my "now" ex-Partner was also Harassed), I was dealing with an Injured Wrist from Highschool and had to wear a Cast... and to top it all off, I was working quite a terrible Job at the Time (This went on for almost the entirety of the 3 Years I spent there, almost Daily).

This is an EXTREMELY Gross Oversimplification of everything but, I made Peace with what Happened. Sometimes, its just best to move on... and not let People live in your Head.

Q: At the end of it all, was it worth it?

Yes, the People who stayed after all the shitshow we experienced, are legit amazing and I cant thank them enough for sticking with me. I was and still am one hell of a mess... but at least, I have People who i can trust now.

In the End, I got to experience something cool and learned a lot from it- on a lot of different Levels.

(The Corruption IF Team that remained by my Side, through the Storm and Back + Me stealing Food (Unfinished Vers.))

"We watched the very thing we Loved & Contributed to: Burn"

The truth is, I am still very proud of the things I got to draw and the things that never made it. Despite everything, I hold no Hate for it in my Heart. I love these pieces. They are pretty.

(A Retake of an Old Art Piece)

A Context Summary of 2025 - 2027

The FNF Hypno's Lullaby (Reboot)

Being Server Admin is hard lol.

Yes, I am one of the Server Admins of the Hypno's Lullaby Reboot Discord (Cabinet of Novelties)

Its been something that has taken a lot of Time to get used to, but it stressed me out for a good bit- till I learned how to handle it. Server used to be small and now its got like... ~15000 People in it... like its just crazy, how One Mod can just explode in Popularity like that.

Either way, I was happy to help out with the Server. Even though, man when the First Demo released, we were HELLA understaffed and overworked. Like, none of us were getting any sleep lmao. Yeah, that took a bit of recovery haha.

Q: So why are you doing this (especially for FREE)??? & Especially if its Stressing you out

Because I wanted to help out my Bestie BeefStarchJello, she has honestly helped me through some of the most difficult Times of my Life and I cant repay her enough. She deserves all the Love she is getting right now.

As much as being an Admin can be stressful (as with any big Moderator Position), its also oddly freeing, when things are calm. I have been hosting some Stages of me playing Video Games and People seem to like it.

I will say, that I have taken a step back, whenever I need it (which is now), to take Time to recover.

A Slice of my Mind 3 (Vent)

"Good cant exist without the Bad, we give our Life & Memories, Meaning"

A Quote from me.

Please do tell me if I should post a lot more of my Personal and Emotionally charged art, I want to share them, I really do, but I feel like People wouldnt care as much or well- see what I see. But I guess, People wont always understand me and thats okay.

Do tell me if I should post ehm tho!! Raaah!

Shoutout to the Best Friends in the World who keep me going!

BeefStarchJello, Terror, RazorDaMusician, Nerdslime, Deadxlv, LukasP, Yeetzer, HikkupChan, SusterReal, Taz, Trey, Tsuki, LanaRoseVA, Ghostie, Mint, Creepsinart, SpringyThe2nd, IkarosAndromeda, Timeline, MaddyMaker, Chonk, Meteorstrike, Targety, PolishJesus, Malphas, InternetBlep, Strauss, Skagoni, BubbleTheClown, Velocity_Gem, Yoshi1219, Yutamon, Zerron21, H06, Trenkali, Qwilbitz, TheOddBox, mr0easy, AureCraft, WhisperMemory, Eris0572, loyalcopy1234..

AND THE LIST GOES ON! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!